Title: -Untitled-
Chapters: Oneshot
Author: visual_ken
Genre: Prose, drama, death
Rating: M 15+
Character/pairing: ShouxSaga but there's no Saga
Warning: Dark Angst, death and yeah, emo stuff
Summary: «Thank you for telling me you don't love me.»








I love you.






But will you ever love me back?


I was naive enough to think those three words could only bring happiness. I thought they were meant to soften your heart like velvet. But no.





I didn't know they could also bring pain and such gloom. Knowing that now makes me realize saying 'those three words' is a sin.










If I had known, would I still have told you? Would I still have tried to make make you part of my life?






Although the band we formed years ago is also my life, I can't seem to forget you. I just want to put you as the first place occupying my heart.







However for wanting this I stepped into an unknown territory. A place seperated in two opposites. One is the one I would have liked to walk into. It's loving and tender, only bliss can be found here.











But the other one. It's made of grief and sorrow. The obscurity is so intense that I'm not able to find any light to reach you.












I'm sorry to love you.




I apologize for wanting you to be my whole existence.

I apologize for making you part of me without your consent.

I apologize also to myself for bringing all those efforts in vain.








I fell in a hollow where no one can save me. I love you too much, hence why it hurts even more.

Hence why my chest is suffering and feels like it's being pulled by a chain. It's pulling me lower and lower until I reach the bottom.








Whose heart is the more sore? Would it be selfish to say it's mine? Does it appear like a sign of someone searching for pity? Is it that stupid to love?











My tears are spilling. I want to escape this dreadful nightmare.












Even though, afterall. You can put the blame on me. I'll take this burden on me. Because you did nothing.





Why? Because despite my feelings, you were kind enough to tell me the truth. To tell me that you did not accept it. And for that I'm grateful.









Although you tried the best you could to comfort me, I still was the one who lied. I'm sorry again, I'm not okay.









I wish I was as sincere as you. I wish I wasn't such an horrible human. Perhaps are we different persons.










This is why, I'm telling you once more. For the last time. Thank you. Sorry.  We will never see each other again.













Farewell, Saga. I will continue loving you in heaven.